I know everyone has regrets but I have one HUGE regret, one that affects my every day life, one that makes me feel so crap, tired and awful that I wish I could turn back time!
I wish I had never had my Gonads removed, you can read more about it here!
When i was originally told about it they made it sounds as if I don't have the operation I will get cancer, which now i know that it is as much of a risk as getting breast cancer, so when am i having my whole breasts removed? Or shall i just kill myself now to reduce the risk of cancer, they might as well just said that. (Don't worry I'm not suicidal).
They just scared a 16 year old in to believing she should have them removed, and EVERY day i regret it.
Before the operation they don't say, if you have this operation you will always feel tired, you will need the HRT otherwise you will feel crap, but the HRT doesn't make you feel the same, it does not give you energy or make you feel like a normal person like REAL hormones do!
They just don't want people walking around with the wrong sex organs and that is the truth! THEY DO NOT LIKE IT!
I feel so annoyed at myself that I even had the operation as it really has just made every day awful, I don't have the same energy as a normal 21 year old, I can't do the things i could before, I just do not have the same ENERGY! I know I am older now but I'm not old enough to worry about things like this!
If you didn't notice I'm a little annoyed with the whole thing.
Please give me a rewind button just to not have the operation and these scars on my stomach then let me come back to the present day!
And all my tiredness is all to do with the hormones, they can try until their blue in the face to get the balance right but its never going to make me feel the better!
So what is YOUR biggest regret?!
Have a nice weekend!!!!